simple (freestyle)

"i am NOT a simple girl!"

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beat is made by remdolla: "purer"

i DO NOT own the instrumental in this demo


lyrics

~ "i'm just a simple man, looking for my girl"

said you a simple man, huh?
well, I’m a complicated girl
and it’s a complicated world
and simplicity isn’t a compliment to me bcos I am not a simple girl
and reality is something i’d rather be in than compromise
my radical perspective of your paradise, where i’m paralysed
as the mother of your children, the obedient wife
giving up all of my ambition for a“perfect life”

didn’t your mama tell you that love only comes with pain?
that love is just a distraction like some falling rain
i’m afraid that love will kill me like abel from cain
and leave me nothing but scars and a couple of stains
if you’re so simple, go ahead and simplify my range, my pain, my trauma, and drama
and glorify your masculinity when you get some good karma
then run home and complain about your day to your mama

if you a real man then you would love a real woman
now, ain’t that real simple? but most of you couldn’t
most of you fall for the scam where simplicity’s your plan
with the audacity to stand by what you misunderstand
mister simple man, don’t try to run when you can’t walk
the talk that you knock on these doors that we keep locked
cos our world is full of scary things and you could be one of them
and i’m not risking my wings for someone who can’t carry them

let’s face it, you’ve been lied to your entire life,
and the truth can be so hard so i apologise
but i’ve already been empathetic, almost all the time,
that i’ve destroyed a part of myself that cannot be revived
and love isn’t an equation, it cannot be simplified
it isn’t a game of chess it cannot be strategised
it needs attention, support and a whole lot of patience and time
it needs for you to just open your eyes

i know i said i wanted to be loved, but not like this
not with pushes and shoves, or obsessive bliss
not with the fear of rejecting then settling for less
but with gentleness and grace and mutual respect
that i am my own person, i’m not a thing you can perfect
and i don’t need to bear your children to earn your respect
while you dream about the life you see on the internet
and it damn well isn’t my responsibility to shape your intellect

cos if you are such a simple man, it must be safe for me to assume
that you just aren’t smart enough for the world that we consume
that you confuse abuse and manipulation with telling truths and
you trust the first person that tells you all the fake news
and i guess your version is always the one you’re gonna choose
simple narcissism keeping you stuck in your own shoes
if you’re still a simple man looking for a “simple” girl,
i’m afraid to disappoint you but they’re not in this world